Don't sell your heart; don't say we're not meant to be -

Monday, March 30, 2009

11:06 PM

I unno about you guys, but I have this sincere admiration for sea creatures and just to share this deep desire of mine, my favorite one is the Blue Whale. Yep, the biggest known animal on the planet -- BLUE WHALE. :) I'm not so sure why, but I think the Blue Whale is such a magnificent creature. The way it swims through the ocean looks so graceful. The sounds it makes are peaceful to my ears. I unno, I just love it. :) Ha ha. I've been watching video clips about it this entire morning... well, until now. Ha ha. I actually learned stuff about it:

The size of its heart is as big as a car.
The weight of its tongue is as heavy as an elephant.
It weighs over 200 Tons.
It is 30 meters long.
Some of its blood vessels are too wide, you could actually swim down them.

Pretty amazing aye ? Ha ha. Well, one video said that it's bigger than any dinosaur that has ever lived -- I have a doubt about this though. You know the Megalodon Shark ? It's my 3rd favorite sea creature. They say it's extinct, but no one really knows since 90%-95% of the ocean is still unexplored. Megalodon Shark (18 Meters long) was the 2nd largest animal next to the Blue Whale. If such a creature exists/ed don't you think there are larger creatures that exists/ed somewhere in the deepest darkest parts of the oceans ? But anyway, we still have much to find out. We still don't even know a lot about Blue Whales. We have no idea where these creatures breed, how they hunt their preys, how they communicate. I really want to find out, and I know I would learn a lot from NatGeo; however we don't have cable TV here. Ha ha loser Meme. April 4, 7pm. You guys watch for me, aight ? L0L. XD You know, I've always had this crazy dream of swimming with em Blue Whales when I grow up... but yeah. That would be scary and very risky. XD Ha ha. I remember telling Jeka before that maybe when I'm so close to my death, it would be the very last thing that I'm gonna do. I die or not, no problem. :)) Ha ha. Let us all go somewhere, someday... ride a boat and go search for the ever worthy Blue Whale. Bwah.

Just another story:
My 2nd fave sea creature is the Manta Ray. :D Ha ha ha. It's so adorable... well, for me. XD Lols.

It's said to be closely related to sharks.
Weighs about 3000 Pounds.
They are the largest of the rays.
They don't have teeth. Ha ha ha.
Manta is Spanish meaning blanket... most likely 'cause they look like blankets.

Lols. I actually had this dream before... I was swimming in the oceans and I met a gigantic Manta Ray. It was wider than a.. double queen size bed. Yehhh and we were friends. (L0L, go on laugh at me. -.-) Ha ha ha. We were so close and I was riding on its back while going aroung the oceans. :) Hihi. A dream that I shall never forget. We should visit Cayman Islands someday too. There we can swim with Sting Rays (Another type of rays) on shallow water. We can even feed then and prolly hugh them. Ho ho. :) I knoowwww, this update is boring. But I just wanna share what's on my mind. That's the use of blogs... I think. :))

Number 1: Blue Whale

Number 2: Manta Ray

Number 3: Megalodon Shark

YESSS BORING. BUT 0H CMON. HA HA. :))
[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

3:55 AM

Fries: Hnd, sabi ko crush kta. xD haha! tnanong kasi nya cno ikaw nung sa facebook haha.
Meme: Yi, naging crush pala ako ni fries. :"> Ha ha !
Fries: Oo kaya. xp
Meme: Ba't dko lam yun.. :c
Fries: haha, anong hnd. di ka kc namamansin e. :| haha..
Meme: Wu, di rin. Kala ko nga ilang ka sakin e. Tas ako epal ng epal. Ha ha ! :))
Fries: Weh, yaya2in b kta lumabas kng hnd, haha :p
Meme: 0nga no, ha ha. Sorri medyo manhid ako sa mga ganyan. He he. xp
Fries: 0nga e haha.. tsk.

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*Yii. Crush niya pala ako dati nung crush ko rin siya.
Ha ha ha. I can't believe it. Ang manhid ko naman nun. :|
Kala ko pa dati epal ko sakanya. Hays baliw ka talaga Meme. xD

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Hays... :) Past is past.
Codename lang yung Fries ah. Ha ha !

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

6:47 AM

YES, MEME !

MARCH IS MOVE ON MONTH.

SO GET UP NOW AND UNDERSTAND.
THAT IN THIS LITTLE IRONIC LIFE,
FAITH IS NOT ALWAYS FREEDOM.

FORGET AND FIX YOURSELF.
NOW.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

2:17 AM

Lalang. You're sooo good in writing. Ha ha. And I'unno. I think I like you more. :)
Ha ha ha. Lalang. While I was reading each line, I couldn't help but smile.
Deep meaningful lines.
Ambagal ko nga magbasa e.
Sobrang ninamnam ko. :))
Ayun. :)

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0n the other hand, my other part of me suddenly feels empty right now.
I may have guesses yet I'm still not sure of the reason behind this crappp.
Moreover, I'm pretty sure that it makes me sad.

Will I always end up here ?

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Monday, March 16, 2009

3:14 AM

Will I ever be able to call you mine ? :I

Please tell me quick.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

3:32 AM

It's about time that I turn you off. It's about time for me to change.

Just a week wouldn't hurt that much. This is for my own good.

All is well and it shall end well. I have to go through this.

I have to finish things with a smile. I know I can.

I should. This PC will shut down now.

I'm not really afraid of failure.

I'm afraid of its consequences.

I've done my bad...

But this last week.

I just need to do great.

And I'm changing.

Praying.

Wishing.

Hoping.

Studying.

With all my might.

GOD, please help me pass everything.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

11:37 AM

Hmm. I wanna learn how to create sweet bedtime stories. :)

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Friday, March 13, 2009

4:36 AM

It's a matter of knowing when and how to say hi..
It's a matter of acceptance and a deep sigh..
It's a matter of understanding that somehow, sometimes..
Some people just greet and lie.

BullCrap.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

6:54 AM

Ba't ganun ?

Kung kelan madaming time, madaming chance, dun ka nabubulag na parang wala kang napapansin na kahit ano ? At kung kelan naman patapos na, wala nang chance, saka ka lang namumulat sa dapat dati mo pa napansin ?

Labo pero. Ewan.
Ang masasabi mo nalang sa huli ay 'Sayang'.
At ibig sabihin nun, wala na talaga. Magsisi ka nalang forever.

Sayang nga naman talaga.
Sayang.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

6:51 AM

Wala. No improvement sa lahat ng aspects ng buhay ko. Ha ha. Fun naman.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

8:10 AM

I've been around enough to know,
That dreams don't turn to gold.
And that there is no easy way,
No you just can't run away...

Walalang. Para may ma post lang. :))
[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

8:00 AM

This is entitled 'I Believe' OST of the Korean version of My Sassy Girl. :)
I love this song. :) I'm currently learning the guitar instrumental of this. :)
Enjoy. :)

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

7:33 AM

Daddi Ivan:

You will never get used to hurt.

You're just thinking

that

you're becoming numb

and you want to protect yourself

parang
you're conditioning your mind

think that you're strong

but deep inside

every disappointment

hurts

every word

and every strand of air

coming from the mouth

are like pins

on your skin.

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--Live and don't let the feelings you have right now slip away.

-- Enjoy everything about life, the rudiments that make life hard are the things that make it work living.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

1:12 AM

A random chat with David.

φ Yukooo ! says:
how do you find happiness ?

David says:
I look away

David says:
And let it come

David says:
on its own

φ Yukooo ! says:
does it come ?

David says:
nah

David says:
lol

How inspiring, David. o.o''
-Sweat Drop-

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

10:35 PM

It's one of those feelings where even though you know too well that it's not right, you just can't run away from it. Painfully inevitable. And all you can do is carry that maximum degree of self-control in order to attain that ever enduring insensitivity.

This has been ringing for months and there's no point in letting it out now; however, doing this at least for once wouldn't be that bad anyway.

Sometimes, I would think that being in this situation is a good challenge. It teaches me acceptance, furthermore it keeps me ready for the worst case scenarios that might actually happen in the near future.

"I'm pointing my fingers like a gun to my head.
I'm trying to get used to how it feels,
So I wont hold back when I do it for real." -Towi

It's a pretty scary, yet funny quote. But surely, it has a really deep meaning if you just try to read more into it.

Every time I get caught in the situation, I would always have no idea on how I should act or react. I have a number of automatic safe choices: Play deaf; smile; look away; ignore and think of other random things; listen to music. To tell you the truth, all of those choices actually works well. Good enough for me to forget about the pain and embarrassment easily.

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Believe me, my number one wish for you is to be happy and honestly, I know that you will achieve that crowning happiness if that person who you dearly adore finally realizes how precious you are, how lovely you are to everyone. That you are worth every second, every strength; you are someone that only one can have.

When that happens, don't worry I will be alright. Don't be bothered about how I would feel and what not 'cause that is not important. It cannot cut what I really feel for you. I know I can still show my care, I can still be the friend that will always be there for you. These I promise you. :)

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

6:36 AM

- Bully told me not to say bad things about Mum.

So I had to edit this post. I just hope things go well soon.

I 'unno. I'm getting too tired of this damn life.

I need to get some rest. I need change. -

[ Yuko ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

4:03 AM

Wu. Ha ha.

This is going to be a Randomnez post and this is going to be Lols. Well, not really. Ha ha. I just wanted to type in that line that came out of nowhere; however, nowhere is unattainable thus it is zilch. 0h my, I don't understand what I just typed there. o.o Ha ha ha.

It's the 5th of March, year 2009.
I'm right here sitting, typing, listening to music. The song playing now is entitled 'The Right To Write Me Off' by Amber Pacific. It's a nice song, really. Heard about this band from a lovely person too. You know who you are. [Giggles]

Can we make this last forever ? With every word you're growing distant.
And I feel as though I have to let you go.

It's exactly 8.10pm.

We have another quiz tomorrow - Psychometrics Lab. I feel so lazy to study now cause we've been having quizzes almost EVERYDAY this entire week... and yes, chem quiz sucked. But anywho, I'm still alive. We're still alive. Death will soon come during clearance. Pass or Fail ? This is making me frail. LOL. XD

I'll take care of you, have faith that when you call my name I'll be there.

Wu. Ha ha.

I want to do so many things in LAYF. Ha ha. I want to... wait, maganda yung lines.

Don't lift a finger, let me show you.. the only way to let this go.
Don't lift a finger, let me hold you.. hold you here until the pain it has all gone.

Yun lang, ha ha ha. Listen to that song. Take Care by Copeland. :) Anyway, I want to:

Travel around the world.
Build up my own business corporation.
Become a Pilot.
Become an Engineer. Master in Robotics.
Publish my own book.
Learn how to sweep pick.
Learn how to play my Saxophone.
Buy my dream cars.
Get a Flute and learn how to play it.
Eat Sukiyaki and Sushi right now.
Paint my room.
Upgrade my personal computer.
Play any sport everyday.
Meet Twenee. ( Ha ha ! )
Be part of a serious music band.
Learn how to go skateboarding.
Learn how to surf.
Have a nicer singing voice.
Paint landscapes.
Remove my braces. o.o
Love you more... if you let me.

So yeah, I had to stop cause this post is getting TOOOO long now, ha ha ha. I want to listen to Boys Night Out right now, but I feel lazy enough to open the radio. Lols. Man, I need a good topic to blog about. Any suggestion ? Well, 'til here !

Run, baby run !
Don't every look back, they'll tear us apart if you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart, don't say we're not meant to be. :)

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

7:15 AM

Naisip ko lang...

I hafta study na.
Ha ha ha. True, true.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Monday, March 2, 2009

6:16 AM

Beating Heart. :x

Ha ha Tama si Bully. Masarap, masaya ang beating heart as crush. Ha ha ! XD

Kahit never ko pa nakakausap... Kahit I think hindi niya alam pangalan ko... at kung kilala man niya ako, baka jersey number ko lang sa PE. Ha ha ! 0k na rin yun no. :))

Lalang. Beating Heart ! :x
Ha ha ha ha ha ha. :))

Yun lang.
Randomnez.

Beating Heart. :x

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

6:22 AM

Nalulungkot pa din ako. :c
Hindi ko alam kung ano dapat ang tamang isipin.
Hindi malaman kung ano gusto iparating.

Nalulungkot pa din ako. :c
Hindi ko na alam ang dapat sabihin pa.
Hindi malaman ang takbo ng iyong isipan.

Nalulungkot pa din ako. :c
Hindi ko alam ang nararapat na gawin.
Hindi malaman kung ito ba talaga ang sigaw ng damdamin.

Yes, Towi. I get your point. I know what you're trying to tell me and I know that what I'm doing now is just close to ultimate dumbness. But you know too well what I'm really feeling and I'm too stubborn to just let it all go. I know that you just want me to be happy, but I am happy in other ways. I just can't find that proper place. I just think too much, feel too much. I know I might be hurting some including myself, but you understand that it's not my intention to do so, right. Thanks for caring. I can pull through this. I might be able to get out of this... soon. This is simply the truth. A visible reality.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.

2:17 AM

Mum bugged me early today just to give me something... and it's not just a something. She actually gave me a new phone. Lols. I was half grumpy and half happy. Grumpy cause I was still soooooo sleepy, I almost ignored her, and of course happy cause I got another new phone. o_o Thanks mummi.

[ I would love to have a car though ]
Lol.

Anyway. I was just fixing my music list the entire afternoon and I feel so tired cause of it. -.- Also, annoyed cause I can't transfer em songs to the damn phone. -_- What a crappy bummer. But anyway, I had enough patience to smile still and sing random songs. I have this song that's been stuck inside my head since who knows when.

Everything I Ask For - The Maine.

Oh she makes me feel like shit,
It's always something.
But I can't get over it,
She thinks it's nothing.

'Cause she's everything I ask for,
Everything I ask for,
And just a little bit more.
Everything I ask for,
Everything I ask for,
And so much more.

Just had to share that. Lol. Download it, folks. So yeah. I suddenly felt down for some horrible reason. Then, I remembered what Daddi Ivan told me last night. He wants me to keep on writing em lyrics, but I told him it's hard now. I unno but it's too hard. So yeh, I tried writing again a little while ago and I think I failed again. My thoughts and emotions are just too scattered, it's so hard to locate em out of me... which is why I'm into my guitar these days. I just strum out random chords and yeh... I feel a little better right after the drill. I'm gonna share my failed work here.

There's no use in trying,
I'm stuck and I am to blame.

If I could just read minds,
I won't be there to bother anymore.

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I know what I want,
But it's the hardest truth that I can ever rant.
I just can't believe this,
This kindness that I've been bringing.

Learning to handle the pain,
Just say my name, I come okay.

Talk about randomnez. Lol. This post is long again. I have SO MUCH to say... but all is running away and this game is too hard to play. This very challenging, rough, hopeless, serious, effin game. Am I making sense AT ALL ? 0k, he he.

[ Y u k o ]

! Somehow I hear your song resound.