My life's pretty messed up at the moment. Seriously. Lol. One big reason is my insomnia... it's so hard to sleep ! I think I only got less than 10 hours of sleep for two days now. Today, I fell asleep around 8am and was bothered by the doorbell a few hours later. LBC man wouldn't stop ! D:< The heck. Ate Lita was out that time... so I had to stand up and yeah. Delivery guy was complaining that he's been there for a long time already... I guess I have the right to complain too that I lack sleep bigtime. Lol. It feels awful really... I feel tired, but I can't sleep. I try to close my eyes for minutes-hours, but it would hurt after a while. Blah. So anyway, I'm really bored here at home. I wish I could just get out of the house anytime that I want, but I can't. Even though Mum's abroad, I still can't. How great. D:< Lol. Well, I'm still happy with music -- gives me peace when all goes rubbish. I really want to get a violin and ocarina right now. Ha ha. Especially the ocarina 'cause I can bring it anywhere. I can play anytime. I know it'll make me happy 'cause it gives off this very relaxing, peaceful sound. Ha ha ha, ok meme what the heck. Hmmm. My favorite music right now is called 'Distant Promise' from the PS game 'Xenogears'. :) Listen to this people... very heart-warming. :)



I'd love to play that; however, my piano is broken. Stupid rats, eating anything they see. -_- Lol. Hmmm what else. Well, if you guys want more music, just tell me. I've a list of the best ones... my favorite ones. :) I'm actually planning to give my Lit prof a copy of these as a sign of my appreciation for her deep, great knowledge and kindness. :D Ha ha ha. Listen to this toooooo !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlYmhEeTNok&feature=PlayList&p=F900783FF20D17E7&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=12

-- Just copy and paste, he he. It's called 'Spring Breeze/Spring Wind' from the anime 'Clannad'. :) Sorry for my nonsense, but I think typing and typing random stuff here is making me feel better tonight... ha ha. Just as usual, I still get stuck with emotions and I hate it. I just hate it. Everything feels so messed up right now 'cause of my emotions. I can't seem to find that spark of happiness. It's tiring. Ha ha. Very very tiring. Right now, I just wish I could find that person... whoever that person is... where I can give all the care that I wanna give, all the trust, understanding, love... without being pushed away or set aside. But it's hard. 'Cause it can't really be just anybody... and you guys know what I mean by that. Lol. Anywho. I'm off to rubbish. Oh yeah, early today... I was able to compose my very first song. I mean, without the help of anybody in less than an hour. :D I was kinda sorta full of joy that time. Lol.


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